“‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.”

losing all Hope is freedom...

freedom from desire
and pain
and that fucking doubt
freedom from fear and
disappointment
and sadness
and painfull love
and tears and
will to try
freedom from yourself...


ah Estel...i lost you.

ah none of us care anymore...

I can see now what you mean, aren't you proud of me?

Είναι πολύ μεγάλη απαίτηση να ζητάς να σε καταλάβουν.
Η κατανόηση είναι μια έννοια που έχει υποστεί κατάχρηση, μια έννοια υποκειμενική.
Το μόνο που μπορείς να ζητήσεις και ισως το μόνο που χρειάζεσαι, είναι να ακουστεις.
Η πραγματική παρηγορια δεν κρυβεται στα λόγια τα μεγάλα, στις αμπελοφιλοσοφίες που πιστευει ο καθένας, μα ποτε δεν εφαρμόζει.
Η πραγματική παρηγοριά θα βρεθεί απ'αυτον που θα εχει την διάθεση να κάτσει να ακούσει.
Σιωπηλός.
Και μια αγκαλιά κακό δεν θα κανε πάντως...

Tuesday 23:34

oh I'm stronger than I thought I am.
I laugh at my diabolical reflection in the mirror and think:
fuck you
I bite my blood red painted lips.
need to drink.
outside it's still 25°C
I'm cold inside.

ah those happy people...

They think and act spontaneously rather than from fear based on past experiences. They live in the now and have an unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment. They are strikingly independent, out of the nest, and living their own life. They accept themselves without complaint and refuse to apologize for what they are. They are not rebels, but they do make their own choices even if they conflict with everyone else’s. Their patriotism knows no boundaries and their values are not localized or geographic in nature. They do not identify with their neighborhood, city, state, or country, because they see themselves as part of the human race and connected to everyone else in the world. They have no interest whatsoever in judging others nor are they critical or harsh with themselves. They feel no need to be understood nor do they feel compelled to interpret the actions of others. They are free of internal conflict, petty worries, and feelings of anxiousness. They are quick to apologize when they realize they’re wrong, but feel no need to apologize to curry favor with another. They love themselves unconditionally so therefore they are able to easily give and receive love from others. And most significantly, they are happy, at peace, and content.

(source: http://www.contrarianism.net/2011/04/04/the-paradigm-problem-everything-you-know-is-wrong/ )